here is my heart
it's open, empty, and and now brutally exposed
there is your heart
one that has been beautifully composed
one that would simply make mine perfectly closed

to finally find you is a dream come true
to finally love you is simply a ticket to my heaven in blue

i dont care if the feeling is not for you to swing
nor it is even a slightest option to your happy living

i just want it for my heart to finally breath
and tell my loneliness to get me over with

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What is hell?

When current human common sense about hell strikes my nerve, one thing for sure.. I was so scared of it. The concept of being sadistically torched by all possible devils [or ‘bad’ angels who supposed to have that task at their ‘SOP’ from GOD] is so frightening, it makes my childhood a ‘thou shall pray and all’ warning area and all I can do is to ‘yes, sir’ and ‘yes, mam’ it to all ‘advisors’ I had back then.

One point of being grown ups is that we can think better, and expect more from anything. For me, that includes all indoctrinated concept I have had and now full-stuffing my head like hell, such as hell.

Now, why does one should go to hell? Because they’re bad when they’re alive, so when they finally dead, they have to pay it off. Bad as they didn’t do whatever GOD ask them to do, and did whatever GOD forbid them to. At some points, we would not be living in hell forever. Some will survive it to the heaven, maybe because by that time, they would already be sorry enough for whatever they did, and have come to a state of mind that [because of the torching stuff] they wouldn’t do the same ever again. To pass hell as a test like that will make them be as ‘holy’ enough to be a GOD themselves. [as I thought of on my WHAT IS HEAVEN previous article]

Hell is a washing process. A delayed moment for all to feel sorry and promise not to do the sin ever again, as they were all too late to do so before they died. Another chance for everyone to become a GOD.

What’s going on? What will happen in this universe that made GOD feels the urge of producing as many GODs as possible? Not to mention if we count all zillion planets exist inside millions of galaxy in this whole universe? Will it make everyone’s [or everything] happy? Is it a gift to be a GOD? Is it fun?

The slightest childish part of my brain couldn’t help but think that there might be a great war in the future, so great with whatever, it makes the universe need as many as GOD as possible. But nah, that’s too comical.

Or……..

Would this whole thing also be a test for our GOD to go to IT’s next chapter? It might be quite a challenge to control humans now. Can you imagine how challenging it would be to ever controlling GODs in the future?

WOW..

[aww, my head hurts..]

What is heaven?

We were all born when this world already has several religions [and GOD of each, for that matter]. I believe that every religion teaches us all how to become a better person who will definitely get something in return on it’s own time and at it’s own place. Yes, a heaven indeed. The place where everything that you want will always be fulfilled: -poof-, just like that. A perfect place that we all want to get into. A perfect spot to point out our all time arrow of life. An ultimate destination.

When God finally made IT’s promise, what will happen there and then?

Not to get all we want in life has always been the biggest clue for me to identify the joy of life. People need to make some efforts to do something that they want to do. It’s called passion, obsession. And GOD knows that it felt better when you want something so bad, did all the efforts and finally grab the results, than just sitting there in coziness and get the exact same thing. It’s the value of each condition that will be counted at the end. When it comes to a glass of water, a person who has walked a thousand miles will see it as a much bigger valuable property than others who have swam inside a pool all day. So when basically all the doings have been done doing, where the hell [or heaven?] is our next destination?

To me, the concept of heaven itself rang a very big bell about the GOD way of live. Hello?? Getting everything you want?

Don’t you think that when we all finally get inside the heaven, we would all become a GOD ourselves? To have the full capacity to control everything. To do whatever we want to do in our own kind of world. And if anyone has ever think about the possibility of our self being tyrants, why the hell not? I mean, look up! Are you seeing the way GOD works? Getting my point?

Maybe.. maybe.

So what’s it gonna be?